Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Going to bed early

Do you guys have daily emotional cycles? I do. I'm always more optimistic in the morning, and I always get more depressed and anxious at night. I have a lot more negative thoughts about myself and everything else at night. It starts kicking in about eleven PM, and continues until I fall asleep. The logical solution (and it works) is to go to bed earlier. When I go to bed early, I avoid this whole nasty cycle.

The problem is, I'm a night owl. I don't get tired at bedtime. In fact, it's 12:30 AM as I'm typing this, and I'm completely awake. I usually don't feel tired until one or two o'clock. At good bedtimes, like 10:00 or earlier, I'm not tired in the least bit. I'm totally awake, and don't want to go to bed. Ten-thirty seems to be the very earliest I can force myself to bed.

It's ridiculous, because I know, logically, that I'll be happier when I wake up, so I should just go to sleep and end my cycle of negative thoughts. I guess it's complicated by the fact that I have a lot of nightmares, so I don't want to go to sleep because I don't feel like it's going to be restful.

I hope I can get better at this when I graduate. Honestly, going to bed earlier would help so much. It really does help me avoid my nightly emotional negativeness. I don't run into it if I go to bed early. I just stay normal, and fall asleep normal.

Sigh. I'll get better at this someday.


  1. Just try waking up will get tired earlier in the day and then you'll be ready for bed earlier. I was never as much of a night owl as you, but definitely more than I am now. We wake up fairly early in the morning and I start getting tired now around 9 and am completely ready for bed at 10 or 10:30 (this might also be because of my current condition which requires a lot more sleep :)). maybe just try it out for a week or so and see if it makes a difference.

  2. I never knew you had nightmares. Funny you say that...ok NOT funny but I mean what a coincidence because just the other day I was talking to Austin about how I feel like I am the only one who has nightmares. Actually lately I have not had any but its weird...sometimes for a couple weeks I go through what I call "nightmare weeks" so bizarre and not fun...I don't even watch scary movies I cant even handle CSI! But my point to this post is that you are NORMAL and I know of many many people that deal with this...
    BUT maybe you should try some of my helps with sleep and the other with racing thoughts...Austin and I want to have you, Jason ,Alyse over for dinner sometime soon so maybe I can give you some then to try =) Love ya Jocelyn =)

  3. I meant many many people who deal with sleep problems...not nightmares..


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